when it rains...

... it pours!! Last night, Trav and I both woke up to some furious thunder and lightning and it's been going off and on all day today. Kinda fun, but not so fun when you PULL A MUSCLE IN YOUR BACK first thing in the morning (YES, that would be ME, today!) and Daddy has need of the one car all day, thus leaving your stranded with a one year old in the house. Ya, it was kinda a hard day... but we had fun nonetheless. Making forts out of pillows, making a mess all over the house, snacking, napping, playing with toys, and I even let her go play in the puddles when the rain took a break. She liked it until she realized she was all wet... then she began to cry and trying to crawl up my leg. Warm bath time!

We leave to travel to the Children's Hospital tomorrow for Bella's palate surgery on Thursday. Ugh. This surgery has been looming ahead for so long and I've been dreading it, especially the last couple weeks. My heart has felt so sick and heavy at the prospect of what most people call "the most difficult surgery." I don't know if it's because I know what's coming, or I feel more attached to Bella at this age, or what! but I feel so anxious. Every night, tears have been present just thinking about handing her to the physicians. And if someone broaches the subject, I nearly start crying. Anxiety is usually not a disposition I'm prone to have, so I know I must offer all my worries and fears to my Maker and Bella's Maker and trust Him to give me peace. I know that the palate surgery will be good in the end, but often I just wish we could leave Bella alone and allow her to be as is. She is so happy and perfect to me, I wish there wasn't so many necessary changes that have to be made to my little Dolly.

Enough about that. I will leave you with a picture of our little lass eating a chocolate chip cookie tonight. She kept making circles in the house - going from one room to the next, chomping on that cookie. She was as happy as a lark... definitely takes after me when it comes to chocolate!